When you pray to God for peace... and he really answers your prayer.

 

 

Last night as I went to bed the quite in the house after such a fun fill stimulating busy day. Your body stops and you beginning to calm down relax and then it hits you.  It was another Celebration without your child.  Before I got too busy in my head I felt the need to pray to GOD right then and there, I knew exactly what to pray for. I pray for stillness in my anxiety I prayed for peace. True peace the time that a clear head free of pain and hurt gives you. A peace that gives you a feeling that you are not alone in your pain. A peace that when you hit your pillow for the night you can close your eyes and fall right to sleep. A peace to know you are okay and you done you best for the people around you. The kind of peace that brings no guilt, no hurt no pain. The kind of peace that brings you no tears.

 

 

I was working on a few things after this prayer and playing on facebook and feeling alone and sad.  I got a message from a High School friend that I have not even spoke with on the phone for at least 4years and not in the regular habit of FB messaging me. I  got a kind message from her and it was simply this. I am thinking of you and your angel son and how hard days like this are for you.. your friend.

 

Okay I get it God you want me to be at peace tonight and you sent me to another and placed me in there heart.. you are an amazing God.

 

I was truly blessed last night with Peace to accept the way things are, to know I done what I could in my grief. in my relationships with others. That you have watched over me and help me survive. Now I can see what is in front of me again and all the true blesses of the now.

 

I placed my head on the pillow last night and felt a  warm blanket of peace over me, closed my tearful eyes and fell right to sleep.

 

Thank you Lord for answering my prayer for peace last night.

 

 

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