Long needed post

Today I am mourning the 17th Anniversary of my sons Death.

It is so unreal and I just wish I could put the pause button on the world today so that I could just feel what I need to feel.....

Some days I feel like I spinning in circles and trying tokeep my head up and this is certainly one of those days, taking it minute by minute and letting the emotions come on even if I breakdown every where I show my face today. 

17 years it has been since I lost you Zachy, and life goes on. Even when you just want to hide under the covers and stay there awhile on the pause button...

But there is this house that needs to be signed for and bought today up in Virginia and that just what I have to  do with heartbreak and tears in my eyes. The Lord gives me strength in the times I know  I can't change a thing about my past but he gives me strength in loving the time I had with my sweet son and remembering his memory.

"Zachy" Zachariah Nathanial 8.28.94 - 3.25.97
When I think back on these times
And the dreams we left behind
I'll be glad 'cause I was blessed to get to have you in my life.

"A butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam.
And for a brief moment its glory and beauty
belong to our world.
But then it flies on again,
and though we wish it could have stayed,
we feel so lucky to have seen it."


We love you Zachy and are now waiting and looking forward to the day we will dance with you in heaven.