Tuesday, April 1, 2014

saying goodbye to my Mops Moms



I want to say that I want to leave a final thought to you all on my very last Mops meeting, it been a pure blessing to be your Co-Coordinator and helping to start up this group. I will continually pray for all of you and this wonderful group to grow in leadership and wonderful Moms.




Don't Stuff Your Pain, Tell God About It
by Rick Warren

"Get up, cry out in the night, even as the night begins. Pour out your heart like water in prayer to the Lord.” (Lamentations 2:19 NCV)

Think you’ve had a bad day? The biblical character of Job had a Ph.D. in pain and loss. In the very first chapter of Job, after everything fell apart in his life, Job “stood up, tore his robe in grief, and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground and worshiped” (Job 1:20 GWT).

Job expressed his pain to God. When you have a major loss in your life, the first thing you need to do is tell God exactly how you feel.

This may surprise you, but God can handle your anger and frustration. He can handle your emotions. Why? Because he gave them to you. You were made in the image of God, and he is an emotional God.

When your two-year-old has a temper tantrum and beats on your knees, you can handle that. In the same way, God is bigger than your emotion, and it’s OK to tell him exactly how you feel. When you prayed for a promotion, and it didn’t happen, when a loved one walks out of your life, when you get the dreaded call saying, “It’s cancer,” you can tell God, “I’m mad. I’m upset. I’m sick. I’m frustrated. I’m ticked off. I doubt.” God can handle your complaints, your questions, your fear, and your grief. God’s love for you is bigger than all of your emotions.

My kids know I love them. They know that I’ve been on this planet longer than they have and that I’ve had more experience than they have. But my children sometimes question my judgment. Can you believe that?

I’d rather have an honest, gut-level conversation with them than have them stuff their frustration and disappointment inside. God is the same way! He would rather have you wrestle with him in anger than walk away in detached apathy.

The right response to unexplained tragedy is not “grin and bear it.” Lamentations 2:19 says, “Get up, cry out in the night, even as the night begins. Pour out your heart like water in prayer to the Lord” (NCV). When was the last time you cried out in the night? When was the last time you poured out your heart like water to God?






When I read the devotion by Rick Warren , I felt The Lord pulling at my heart to share this the devotional made me think of the time I yelled and screamed at God that He was not being fair to me. I was 24 years old and felt like God was letting me down In so many ways and so much heart break for the passed 3 years. I was driving from Baltimore MD to Grenville NC on July the 4th and I remember for the first time REALLY letting Him have it. I was shocked at the depth of my own emotion. I knew deep inside that He loved me and He had shown Himself faithful a million times over to me, but I couldn't help but see where my life was going and it was going any where happy. I pulled my car over on the side of the freeway and screamed at God. It didn't seem fair that I was having to wait for answers that I felt I deserved and coming out of a very dark pit I lived in these past few years, I was trying to give my self to him, my life to hand it over. But I did not trust anyone and I was struggling with trusting my pain to God. It didn't seem fair that God kept closing the door on me.



I was coming home after failing out of the Master program due to my emotional instability and depression after losing my son. He was not answering my prayer for peace, I do know God was keeping me from hurting by pulling me out of depression Little by little but I was not faithful in my believing he could love me or help me with my burdens and lack of answers. I agree with the article - God can handle your feelings and even your temper tantrums. In fact, I wish more of us would trust our very deep and difficult feelings with God first. Many times these gut level emotions are used to damage relationships by sharing them with others when they need to be processed first with God.


God put me in his time table I meet my husband Scott that next weekend after that screaming match with God and God has been faithful to me always I just don't always see that through my pain, and I am growing in my faithfulness to him more each day.









Prayer
Lord we come to you in prayer for ourselves,
God be with you all of you ladies as I say goodbye, Lord I love my MOPS group which I hold so dear Lord, Please bring blessings that multiple to this group and that this group grows strong in the love and mercy's that only you can give. May this group grow in the love of one another to only build up and make better Mothers. Lord as I say goodbye that you hear the needs of the next Co- Coordinator and what in her heart Lord I love this group and will trust in you to take care of them in the loving way only that you can. Praise and Glory to you Lord Amen.









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